It started when you stopped biting your nails
You found something
Something I had been trying to show for months, only to have you discover it when you were alone
A dance between heaven and hell
Is only so fragile
Suffering renews strength
and happiness is a relatively new invention
You found a part of yourself
A piece hidden amidst the anxiety
Lodged within the depression you ran away from
Deciding to dig deeper instead of being buried
You found the power to choose
To stick by your decisions, whether right or wrong
Before, you were a babe,
Thirsting for my honey
My presence was more than important, it was vital
But all children must leave the crib, I just didn’t expect you to go so soon.
Holding your head high as you finally grasped the ledge leading to heaven
You were closer to your dreams, but so much farther away from me.
A relic from your indecisive dynasty
To give you up is to give myself up
And to give up myself is to give up my self
Now viewed with appreciation over love.
Oh change, how cruel you are
To the one who doesn’t.